Do we ever really know the moment when we begin again; when a chapter ends and a new one begins? Is it like the turn of a page, so crisp, so distinct? Or does it blend and blur a bit like the changing of seasons? When I was finally listed for a double lung transplant, having gone through a rigorous testing program, I thought this is it. I am stepping onto the bridge, crossing over into life post-transplant. Two years and 8 months later (but who's counting?) I find myself still standing on the bridge. What happened to my new beginning? Why hasn't it shown up yet? Did it come and I missed it distracted by some silly thing leaving me stranded on the bridge? Or was that not really the cue to a new chapter? A false start that faked us all out. We've been prepped and ready for some time now, mostly skimming through what we thought were the last few dreary pages. But oh how this chapter drones on! Seems maybe what I missed was the point.
So what is the point then? Perhaps it has less to do with dramatic entrances and exits into stages of our lives and more with how we approach each day or moment of our life. Each new breath being a chance to begin again. To stand at the edge of now and say from this moment on... Forgiving all our mistakes and heartbreaks and pressing onward. Starting fresh in each moment to enjoy our lives as we live them. Not in retrospect or prospect but right here, right now. That is the point I decided to get out of this anyway.
And so it is with that sense of beginning anew that I begin this blog, a Daily Hi. My intention is to post daily, something refreshing, inspiring, funny or hopeful. Sometimes my own words, sometimes borrowed from a teacher I admire. Just a little something each day to help me stay focused on what really matters and perhaps uplift someone along the way. Let's see how this goes...
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